I need a method for finding that which I am seeking for. I need a method to get enlightened. I need a method to come to a better understanding of who I am really. I have a method: I read books, I listen to those who show the way, I ask questions to those which are on their path ahead of me. And then I say to myself: All these teachings and methods and answers must be love. And love is unconditional. And this again means: I want to understand all these wayshowings but I would love myself even if I wouldn't or couldn't follow the path which is shown...By doing / thinking this I become that which I am seeking for. This must be the method, this must be the way...
When I first read P'taah I had an understanding of what he's talking about. After some time when I read again I saw that I came to another, better understanding. Things which by first reading didn't make any sense to me were familiar to me. When we read something our first understanding is on "minds level" - which is absolutely normal. We understand what our capacity in that moment allows us. But when we can develope in ourselves we come to the greater and enhanced understanding. We can see the bigger picture. This happens because with time we can "let go" of our old beliefs and unconscious resistance to enhance. I am thinking in these days that this must be the key of growth. When we can "empty" our head and step into what is unknown, the unknown becomes our friend because it is full of greater understandings. When I am now conscious about this principle I recently notice that I don't have to wait but start "emptying" my head from "known" opinions and understandings right after I build them to make place for new to come in. The only thing to do is to "know" that what I have just understood from this book is wrong and has to be left. It is not easy because we prefer the thought that we "know" that we are "the makers" etc. Stepping into unknown is a kind of vulnerability. It is like standing there "naked" and "without protection". Why do I read P'taah? because I want to know how I am going to find what I am seeking for. I read the book. I come to an understanding and when I have the "answer" it is stupid to "leave" it. But this, alone this is the way of growth I understand better and better. "Leaving" the understanding does not exclude the option that it will appear again in that emptiness we have created. This is always possible but we must do the step and really step into unknown without guarantee what we are going to find. The mind is a liar and it is always possible that I take another lie which satisfies me because I am afraid of the unknown.
A guy is driving around the back woods of Montana and he sees a sign in front of a broken down shanty-style house: 'Talking Dog For Sale '. He rings the bell and the owner appears and tells him the dog is in the backyard.
The guy goes into the backyard and sees a nice looking Labrador retriever sitting there.
'You talk?' he asks. 'Yep,' the Lab replies. After the guy recovers from the shock of hearing a dog talk, he says 'So, what's your story?' The Lab looks up and says, 'Well, I discovered that I could talk when I was pretty young. I wanted to help the government, so I told the CIA. In no time at all they had me jetting from country to country, sitting in rooms with spies and world leaders, because no one figured a dog would be eavesdropping.' 'I was one of their most valuable spies for eight years running. But the jetting around really tired me out, and I knew I wasn't getting any younger so I decided to settle down. I signed up for a job at the airport to do some undercover security, wandering near suspicious characters and listening in. I uncovered some incredible dealings and was awarded a batch of medals.' 'I got married, had a mess of puppies, and now I'm just retired.' The guy is amazed. He goes back in and asks the owner what he wants for the dog. 'Ten dollars,' the guy says. 'Ten dollars? This dog is amazing! Why on earth are you selling him so cheap?'
'Because he's a liar. He never did any of that shit.
The thing to leave behind is the notion that there is any such thing as a 'right' or 'wrong' feeling, thought or belief. Any book we read and the beliefs we form from it have their time space and sequence. We read another book, form another opinion and so on.Its all just stepping stones to an understanding thats within our hearts. Life experience proves our beliefs time and time again by manifesting what we choose to believe, then we read a different book, think different thoughts and life is different once again.
Its not the reading or seeing but the feeling inside of us that truly dominates our decision process, imagine if we all did only what makes our hearts sing. Imagine the whole planet of hearts singing in chourus, what a symphony that would be, how 'in tune' would we all feel then.
I have seen many like you said the man who was in charge of the prison. I have seen many who came along this way. What they did, they kept on doing themselves...Here in the prison I mean...What they did, they kept on doing...Some passed with this feeling; Oh I didn't even start yet...As they looked back and saw what they did was just keeping on doing...Others stayed and stayed and didn't have this feeling; Oh I didn't even start yet...Not many, maybe one or two, maybe a few more understood the story which was going on here at this place I found out at a later time of my life. The man in charge was the loveliest man ever and the doors were always open...But nobody cared as everybody kept on doing what he has always been doing...Nobody heared the tears he cried. I mean the man who was in charge of the prison...Nobody cared the tears they cried, I mean the men who were in charge of their prison... So who's gonna be the next one? I asked myself all of a sudden. Who's gonna be the next one to put the blame on? Who's gonna be the next one to put the chains on? And who's gonna be the next one to rely on? Was this what the loveliest man ever has thought when he saw me the first time? Were these thoughts of somebody who started working...in charge of a prison for the first time? Did I cry these tears before or now for the first time?
I notice again and again that becoming love, enhancing our understanding and starting to see things from a broader perspective is not something we can "make". For example I when I sometimes see that I am judging a person when I start thinking like this; Oh waht did P'taah say? He said this person also reflects me so now I have to accept that I am also like this person" it doesn't help...The "doing of the intellectual mind" is not the way to transform our lives. Yes it is true waht P'taah says but this must come "from inside". It is only about an understanding and understanding is love which cannot be "made". When one is angry to another he cannot just remember self that he's supposed to love him and suddenly sarts to love him...If he's ready yes, but if not he will not "make" it. Every understanding, every step that we make towards love is the result of all the understandings and steps we made until that day and if we are not "ready" we cannot become love, we can do wahtever we want but we can't even make a small step forward if we have not accumulated enough love until that day...Here is also good news: When we are ready, when we have made steps nothing can stop us form doing the next one. The enlightenment has an energy that feeds itself and we reach with every bit of forgiveness or understanding a new level which automatically leads to the next level even "we" couldn't stop our way of enhancing and growth...And this is wonderful! Namaste
Hi burake. You are expressing my experiences very well. I laugh lots at myself and yet continue to struggle some more. :) Since we (Earth humans) are all one experiencing this same time in history, I figure we are all having the same urgings. I never feel alone in my struggles as I figure every other human is right along with me. This is when I surrender to love within, feel it with great passion and trust that it goes forth around the globe touching anyone who doesn't know who they are at this time. I constantly recall that I want to be on Earth at this time in history. It is a goodie. :) :) :)
Burake - referring to your May 1 post "But this, alone this is the way of growth I understand better and better. ...we must do the step and really step into unknown without guarantee what we are going to find."
I am reminded of my great day of fear about 1991 or so - realizing that this step you mention was freedom and power and magic and wonder....and sitting on my deck absoutely terrified of this knowledge...
what did this knowledge expect of me? who was I to think I figured anything out? Shit, no more excuses. etc.
So for the time I tabled it and tried to simply keep absorbing this wonderful truth.
For a long time I think I tried sharing this truth and I now realize I wanted company yes, but I was also afraid for others, rather than appreciating everyone's power to guide them where it would.
And regarding your thoughts about the Mind being a liar, I have discovered it always lies to me when it bases its premise on a fear based idea...so I learned to take my time making decisions or comments about things until I could uncover my fear based reactions and separate them to discover the true reaction!
I will keep reading the posts but it takes much for a respone so can only manage a bit at time. :) Pat
JUles - you say "Life experience proves our beliefs time and time again by manifesting what we choose to believe, then we read a different book, think different thoughts and life is different once again.
This makes life so much easier because we can choose our disposition and either benefit or not from the choice - now I know we beneift from it ALL! but you get my drift I hope.
Two things Ptaah stresses more than any others i have embraced. One is to say my thank yous every morning - some times I simply lie in bed and think of things I'm thankful for... the second one is to spend time in nature - no matter where you can find it. fortunately I live on a lake and have a gorgeous setting/garden/trees and wildlife to view.
And acutally - the story of how I found this place 10 yrs ago is worth retelling:
I was married to my 3rd husband 10 yrs at the time and needed a ladies get-a-way vacation, but preferred to be alone on vacation (during that year) so I abruptly told my husband I was going to a near by city to see friends and I didn't now why I had to get a way but I did. He took this as a sign that our relationship was in trouble because i honestly couldn't explain why I needed to go, and so soon, etc.
anyway, it's hard to write all that part clearly, but needless to say, I arrived in the nearby city and spent about 3 days.
while there I visited the small town's musuem and met a woman who knew about real esate and told me about this cabin on the water 22 miles away for $179,900.
I did not know I was looking to move and was not unhappy in my current home or location really...
Still I felt compelled to go try to find this property. She couldnt describe how to get there when I asked becasue she said it was down Hwy such and such and then about 10 miles down a winding dirt road where I would surely get lost without a guide....
Still, I felt this compulsion when I got to the car - so not having the agents phone number I just decided to drive doww the Hwy for 22 miles and see where it took me. You know, A fun country drive...
It was very difficult to find but I rememberd that our bodies can feel water and so I pointed my finger tips over the steering wheel and let them guide me!
As I rounded the curve toward the lake view I muttered "Holy Shit"....and tried to keep my eyes on the road, it was soooo beautiful.
The rest is that we bought the property by putting our home up for sale and renting it until the closing of our home. We are currently celebrating our 10th yr here.
In reading this post over I acknowledge that my story is a bit long, I guess I may bore some folk, so excuse me. I had a blast writing it and remembering the joy (and pain!) of moving.
And all thanks to my soul for urging me to drive to this town and notice what ocurred whilst there...one never knows what is around the bend, eh?!
Dear All - Did you see the Weekly Quote? Here it is: Beloved ones, we are here to remind you of the grandest truth that you really are. To remind you of the grandeur, the wondrousness, the beauty, the glory that is you, that is human-kind, in this now. And to remind you of the power that you are, the power that you contain within you, to transform not only your day-to-day life but also to transform your world.
Of course, to affect this transformation, it is necessary to have as the foundation of your life the knowing of certain fundamental and universal laws. The first one is that you create it all. You create your own reality absolutely. You create your own reality from an idea, a belief, a thought, and from the emotion that that idea, belief and thought evokes.."
He was sad, as he came to the prison...He was blaming self...How could I ever do this? The wise man spoke to him in his dream: What we do is not important...But what we learn from it...It is all a co-creation...We can never do something to somebody unless he needs this experience...As long he desires this experinece if it is not us he will create that sitauation with another person...So before you enter this place make your heart feel lighter...Judgement and self accusements are the worst prison that can exist...But don't forget that you have the key...
