19 years ago I was a back seat passenger in a 4WD that was involved in a head on collision with another car that was travelling at 100kmph. I wasn't wearing a seatbelt at the time and was thrown through a closed window, landing meters from the upturned vehicle, fortunatly no one was killed. My head and left side was split open, I was picking glass out of the wound areas for years after, I also snapped the C7 vertabrea in my neck and crushed the T4,5,& 6 vertabrae in the middle of my back. Apparantly I should have been dead or at the very least be in a wheel chair, the doctors called it a Miracle. The roof of the 4wd on side where I was sitting was crushed to seat level, if I HAD been wearing my seat belt they say I would not have survived. The person beside me was wearing hers and she was stopped from being thrown onto my side and the roof on her side was not crushed, she did break her pelvis, but she was not crushed and was able to get herself out of the car. The driver of our vehicle was not hurt at all and the front seat passenger sustained some minor facial injuries. The driver of the other vehicle also sustained only minor injuries, so there were Miracles all around for all of us.

I walked out of the hospital the next day and went home, my friends had been taken to a different hospital and I just wanted to be with them. My friend with the broken Pelvis was in hosp for about 5 weeks before she came home in a wheel chair, a temporary measure, she was fine after just a few more weeks and went on to have 2 beautiful children without any problems. So did I.

I believe it was all meant to be otherwise it wouldn't have happened. I believe everything happens for a reason and so I chose to LIVE, I chose to take this MIRACLE (Drs words not mine) and not to wallow in my own misery, though I did just that for a while, but I was determined to heal and it was then that I was led to P'taah and my real healing began. I walk, run, jump, skip, laugh and play joyfully with my own children. My vision is perfect, my hearing the same, I can speak articulately and have sustained no long term brain damage (I suffered epileptic fits/fugues for a about 2 years) I can do anything anyone else can. I refused to let it hold me back in anything I wanted to do.

I know first hand that life is what you make it, that there are no accidents. For a while after I had dreams of a massive hand reaching down from the sky and gently lifting me out of the car as it flipped, my side sustained a deep gash of about 15cms yet my thick cotton shirt was untouched and still tucked deep into my tight jeans, my face was also untouched but I had shattered the passenger window with it. Why wasn't I wearing a seatbelt when I always wore seatbelts? There are still many things unanswered but I have stopped questioning, P'taah helped me to understand that it doesn't matter anyway, the only thing that matters is the NOW moment and that I am PRESENT for all my NOW moments.

So in this now moment I choose Life, I choose to live a positive happy joyful life. Choice is all we have really, the choice to live our lives in joy and LOVE or to live them in FEAR. Don't get me wrong I still deal with fear regularly but now I know that it is simply a place in the dark, a place without love, so I open the curtains, I let in the LIGHT. I CHOOSE LOVE.

Thank you all for allowing me to share a small part of why I am who I am today.

Wow what a testimony and what a teaching. I love that story and the way it was told. You have truth my sister, and now you are the example.

You are blessed, and so are we all.

"it is simply a place in the dark, a place without love, so I open the curtains, I let in the LIGHT. I CHOOSE LOVE."

Thank you for telling me that it can be as easy as opening the curtains and let the LIGHT to come in (sometimes I'm still in the old habit of making things complicated). My appreciation to you for sharing your experience of making choices and the deep knowing of the heart.

May Goddess/God's joy fills your soul. Namaste!

You are most welcome, but the reminder is for me also.
I am just like you, I forget and try to make things much more complicated than they really are too. Thats why I love to come here everyday, to remember that it really is that simple, to literally open the curtains and let in the sun, to realize that it ALL comes down to the choices we make.

I not only choose to open the curtains, but I choose to step outside into the sun, to immerse myself in the simplicity of a gorgeous day or a rainy one, as it is today.

The most important choice for me is the choice that I AM OK. That I AM VALID, that I AM allowed to just be who I am, whatever that is. If ALL my choices come from LOVE I can't go 'wrong', it's when my choices come from FEAR that I get lost in the dark. Thats when I stumble around until someone reminds me to OPEN the darn curtains lol:) There is nothing that is 'WRONG' anyway, P'taah and many others have taught me that, just different levels of correctness.